Something I think, but I never tell anybody. In my mind whenever I'm alone I will always what would happen, mostly only horrible events or seeing someone I know being all alone in the forest or park. Why do I think of them - I don't know. It gives me creeps but I'm used to it now. All the pain I have known will never fade away it leaves scars to my soul. My soul... it may not be broken yet but I feel like I don't know what to think or do. So many people who to think about and not to hurt them. There is no way to kill the pain I feel. No painkillers would work, or they would be only temporary.
My mind wanders in the distant lands, seeking for anwser what to do with her.
Life has been too miserable in past weeks, but as well there has been happy times too.
I have been thinkg to write for long... or not to write because I'm confused by all who are there in the world. Insanity taking over my mind, but not letting it control my actions.
Walking in the graveyard everyday past week has been good for me as there I feel like no one can hurt me there, not even my dark thoughts, not zombies, not anyone as that is a place of last rest for all who have died.
Am I dead within living people?
My emotions are hard to get as they are buried deep inside.
Walking in snowstorm feels great as I'm not feeling cold at all. It's just my body that radiates heat whenever I do something.
Too much exercise is always not good for me, but why I do that I don't know how to anwser that...
My mind is something to get... just somethin insane I write... going insane is fun... no one notices when I snap, because it is in my mind...
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