Monster at bay

For myself I'm a monster, but outside I look just like normal, everything inside will be wrecked soon if I don't bother doin anything. I will not let the beast out though it wants and tries to escape. My mind is blocking it till the very end, it never rests. If I try to sleep, I see future, waht would happen if the beast is let out. I don't want it. I will not let it out. I keep it at bay, till the end of my days... 

Putting him to sleep is like trying to get what you see in your reash but never get your hands on it. He just is there and waits, till I let my guard down and then he takes control of me.

I don't know what will happen if he get's out... 

but it will not be good... 

I hope my mind stays sane if not there is nothing left for me to collect after sanity is restored... 

Just things

For a couple of days I've been sketching only one figure...
I wonder why, it is just so in my head that I can't get it out...
Every time I grab a pen and try to draw that 1 pic just comes to my mind with different outfits...
It's so simple to draw it, but harder to add something to there ...

Can't get it out my head...
Can't leave it alone...
Don't know why...
Don't want to forget...

Looks like OC...
But not really an OC...
I don't have this kind of imagination...
Nevermind it's so meaningless after all...

Something I did...

A good song I found thx to friend while driving from one birthday last weekend.

Last weekend was great...
Except the part where I drank 35% pepper drink with wermouth, after a lot of rum&colas.
Sauna was perfect there but seems I managed somehow to get burnmark to my shoulder and it's been annyoing me now. Playin Alias till 5.30 am was fun, and somewhat a challange, after game ended I fell to sleep so fast I noticed to wake up at 11am.

Now I can't go to any party in a month or so because of the badminton tournaments happening almost every saturday and it's a 2-3hr drive to those places. That extends my school week by atleast a day. Onyl Sunday left for resting.

Animatsuri is coming soon. Thinking if I should partake in flashmob at Animatsuri or not... I don't think I have time to learn it fully and knowing my skills dancing... I will clearly fail.

I have the best song to add to the end of this post.

P.S. TAT is great band

It's Autumn already?

It's been long I last wrote here.

The summer took it's toll, but now I'm back.

Nothing interesting haven't happened yet. Or no spontanous storys haven't jumped into my mind yet.